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I AM LOVE
What are you choosing to feel today?
When we truly understand the powerful meaning and importance of synchronicity in our life, we can use it to propel us forward and make better choices. We all have moments in our life that are there to initiate us and this is our souls calling to work towards a better path. I have had many nudges and teachers along the way and I know there are many more to come.
Early 2015 I was drawn to the teachings of this extraordinary man who goes by the name of Bentinho Massaro. . . he lives in the States and at this time he rarely came to Europe for work. Bentinho is Dutch and as luck would have it he was running a retreat in Amsterdam in the following New Year so that he could visit his family over the Xmas holidays, I instantly booked onto it.
In the December of 2015 he posted a last minute announcement to say that he would be in the UK if anyone fancied meeting up in a small intimate space in London. I feel very fortunate to have had the opportunity to be a part of this small gathering. He sat for a while simply tuning in, making contact with each and everyone of us. . .even before he spoke I could feel his energy, it was tangible – something shifted within me, my heart connected with his and I could feel a wave of unconditional love, so deep, so vast and so pure – it simply moved me to tears. . . it felt familiar and true. I realised in this moment that Bentinho was reflecting back to me the very essence of what I am – what we all are – it was a profound and deeply moving experience.
It was soon after this moment that I consciously decided to become my true self, my authentic self. . . in fact it was to be my New Years resolution to do what ever it took and what ever that looked like to accept and become whole. It sounds dramatic but seriously, how could I not know who I truly am? From a very young age we are like sponges, we absorb information from our parents and peers, sometimes wonderful but most often these are distorted perceptions of the world around us, we start to take on beliefs that are often not in alignment with our truth. . . we are institutionalised in schools, universities and thrown out into a society that’s feeds us fear.
I would have to shed more layers of conditioning and the years of programming to be and feel free. I had already spent many years un programming myself, it was time to step up dig deeper and get serious, how else was I going to be able to experience this depth of unconditional love and peace more frequently.
I’ve always had an innate knowing that underneath the programming and distortions we are sovereign beings at heart though our society would have us believe that we need to seek something outside of ourselves to complete and confirm who we are, to give us the self worth, happiness and love that we dearly crave. . . when in truth we have all that we need within us . . . including the power to self heal.
I’ve not had TV for over a decade, I unhooked from the drama, tv, news and other distractions long ago, I choose to walk bare foot over wearing high heels, food no longer controls my life, alcohol is no longer a must at gatherings and my diet has changed to one that is in alignment that supports my growth and is more sustainable for the planet. I spend more time creating and doing the things that I love. . . I express my self more freely and deeply and follow my inner compass. I am less judgmental, I care less what people think of me, I love myself more and experience longer periods of joy.
The human condition is a funny one to crack – it can be an addictive game and on some level I am still playing. . . I have become more aware each day as old patterns fall away, if I see behaviour that no longer serves me I now have the tools to help me change what I can, when I can. Things are shifting at a rapid pace for me and they can for you too.
I know this is the way to create a better future not just for me but for all humanity, but we must first understand who we truly are. It starts with us, by reconnecting, remembering and healing those parts of ourselves that we have disowned or simply ignored. . . we can heal the world, through healing ourselves.
Friends and family may not always understand my methods and that’s okay, a few have fallen by the wayside and that’s okay too. New connections are being forged and by speaking my truth and walking the talk I know I am helping to raise others up.
Going with-in is most definitely the new going out and yes, this journey has been lonely and confusing at times but I wouldn’t change anything. These day’s the journey is far easier, though layered and complex. I simply notice and I breathe. . . progress is being made. . . and slowly, but surely, I am unfolding into my authentic self and by doing so I notice the world around me is changing for the better, and in all areas of my life. I am more connected, conscious and notice the signs and nudges that keep me on track and continue to explore my reality with the intention of helping others to do the same.
If you have made it this far then I trust there is a message for you that will resonate on some level – it will call to your soul . . . Simply breathe and feel it
So. . . what are you choosing to feel today?
Much love to you on your journey, whereever you are. . .
